(English Translation revised by my friend Tiger Canon. Thanks a lot!)
''Be my friend, But please don't ask about my past.''
I joined a relationship management workshop last week. It was a good workshop hold by VUBC and I've learnt a lot.
One of the reasons I joined the seminar was because I am not good in communication especially questions that concern my past.
For example I don’t like to explain the reason I rejoined the university. It is almost inevitable that I need to lay the blame on my farther for failing to support me when I was enrolled by a top government university in
If you were in my position, you would find I could not forget easily because I am always being asked of my past. Each time, this has made me to live through what had happened.
On the contrary, I do not hate my father. If I don’t like someone, I will choose to avoid him. This world is so big, why make myself unhappy by hating someone all the time?
It is just hard to explain to others why I gave up the study at the university. The courses in top university were too difficult. My father had not just gambled his money away but also my life and my future. I was working 2 jobs concurrently just to survive meant preparing for the exams was near impossible.
All these reasonings were unhealthy, it seems I had attributed my failure to my father and I have taken all the credits for whatever success I may have. Regrettably, whenever the question is raised, I have no choice but to describe the circumstances at the time were tough. I do feel sorry but I had tried my best. It was beyond me.
Actually, I have been searching for a closure. I have been wondering if I could have done better. Is there anything else I could have done to secure my degree at that time? And why did my parents split up? By taken their lessons, will I be able to pick the right life long partner and avoid a similar failure? Only with these constant reminders, I am able to find myself and discover my true problems.
I have yet to discover the solution, but I aware that if I continue to blame my father, I will never be able to move forward.
This is why I am not really like others to ask about my past. There is no easy answer and for the time being, I do not know how to tell the truth by not hurting others. On the other hand, I do not hate others for asking me about my past, for the very reason that you probably have never encountered a person like me in your real life. Our differences in life experiences ensure that what ever the conclusion we may come to, it will never be the same.
So, besides my past, actually we have a lot of other topics to talk about, for example
“Which city do u mostly want to travel to? Why?”
“Which city do u like most? Why? ”
“Do you like KL? Why?”
“How you feel about
“Who do you mostly respect? why? ”
“Do you want to makan together?”
“It is a good weather today. Do u want to play tennis together?”
In hope, we shall be friend.......
(Thanks for reading my blog and trying to understand me )